Apr 29, 2022Member-onlyWill It Always Feel This Good?Nothing in my world ever feels ok. Anger constantly floats around me like a swarm of bees. It swallows my days and consumes me. …Relationships3 min readRelationships3 min read
Apr 7, 2022Member-onlyPoisonedI ate the poison apple. I ate the whole fucking thing. The funny part is it even tasted poison. If you want to know what poison tastes like, imagine the smell of a dead body and put that smell on your taste buds. …Food Poisoning4 min readFood Poisoning4 min read
Mar 25, 2022Member-onlyDear Happiness, Are You Out There?“One must believe in the possibility of happiness in order to be happy” — Tolstoy Happiness and I aren’t old friends. In fact, I’m not sure I’ve been in contact with happiness since moving on from childhood. …Depression1 min readDepression1 min read
Jan 24, 2022Member-onlySelf-Care App ReviewsIt was 3 a.m. and I had that little nagging feeling that I had to pee. I calculated if I could go back to sleep and hold it until 7 but that seemed like an excessive workout for my bladder. Peeing the bed runs in my mom’s family so I’m…Android4 min readAndroid4 min read
Jan 9, 2022Member-onlyA Half-Witted PlanA Half-Witted Plan The moving truck came to a rolling stop. Margery’s dark brown bob poked out over the steering wheel and her round almond-colored eyes latched onto mine. She winked. I made my way through the throng of drug dealers sitting near the corner of the parking garage where…Fiction3 min readFiction3 min read
Dec 31, 2021Member-only2022 Book ListTomorrow begins a new year which means 365 (brand spanking new) days to read. Below is my book list for 2022 and a few notes about my selection. The general gist of how I pick my books for the year are: I pick a topic that I’m interested in learning…Book List2 min readBook List2 min read
Dec 10, 2021Member-onlyIs This Letting Go?One month ago, I wrote a miserable article about trying to let go of my 11-year relationship. My boyfriend, Lucas, described our relationship as “friends” and then left for a month-long trip with no contact. When I wrote the article, he’d been gone about a week and half. I was…Relationships3 min readRelationships3 min read
Nov 7, 2021Member-onlyThe Person I Want to Be, Not the Person I AmI’ll be quiet and easygoing. I’ll keep all those hurtful, inappropriate, morally questionable thoughts inside my brain. I won’t say a word unless it needs to be spoken. I’ll eat only healthy food. I’ll look at that bag of dill pickle potato chips I love so much and sink an…New Me1 min readNew Me1 min read
Oct 27, 2021Member-onlyPraying to Time: Letting Go of an 11-Year RelationshipI hear that time heals all wounds. I wonder why I can’t will my own emotional healing into existence. Why can time heal what feels to be unhealable? I wish I were stronger than time. I have been no stranger to airports and air mattresses this past year. …Relationships4 min readRelationships4 min read
Aug 24, 2021Member-onlyMonday Picnic Disappointments and Break Room OrgysWe’ve been experiencing a much overdue snap of fall weather. Our landlord sent out an apartment-wide email reminding us to be great global citizens, turn on our heat to 65 degrees so our pipes don’t freeze, and close our windows. …Relationships5 min readRelationships5 min read
